This month I am posting about risk, and words that contribute to the risks I take in my life!
Jump, that four letter word that means to lift your feet off the air and go. Where have you jumped in your life? What risks did it take to lift those feet?
Some of my jumps have been huge, more like leaps into the unknown. Others have been small little hops.
It occurs to me that there are some tasks I jump into without any sort of hesitation!
You know like.... sitting down to watch a full season of my favorite tv show. Or going and taking a hike instead of cleaning. Those kinds of jumps are easy. It doesn't take much thought or preparation, and most of the time I end up learning something, if nothing else how to spend time just being.
Then there are the jumps that involve others. Like the jumps into new community, or the jumps into asking that person that you just met to go have coffee in hopes of building a friendship that spans continents and decades. Those kind of jumps take a lot more risk and time. Those kind of jumps require a little hand movement for balance. When you jump in to a new community you risk losing a part of yourself. This happened to me a couple of years ago.
I have a hard time with trust (as do most people). I had been wanting a true community for awhile. Been praying for it, contemplating what it might look like, and I walked into something that I thought finally fit that idea. When I got to that community I jumped in. I was open and honest. I let my guard down. I had deep conversations with people that I wouldn't normally have had before. I asked people to lunches, dinners, and movies. I spent time with people even though I didn't necessarily always leave feeling the greatest about myself. That jump was hard, it was a risk. It helped me in a lot of ways, and it hurt me in others. I lost a little of myself in that jump, but I gained other parts of myself back that I had thought were forever gone. I wouldn't take the jump back, it was worth it.
That jump is preparing me for my next jump. I am not sure what kind of jump it is going to be, or what awaits me on the other side, but I know that it is worth it. I know that people are worth it. No matter if it is only for a year or two, those moments, those memories they will always be a part of my journey. I will always know that I tried my very best to risk all that I had to make that jump into a community that I thought worthy of jumping for.