If you have read my last post you know that I am switching up my career. In doing this I started applying to camp jobs all across the United States. I have had Skype interviews for camps in Ohio, California, New Mexico, Wyoming, Washington and Alaska. Basically I am open to wherever I am supposed to go. As I started this process, I had really no intention or thought that I might end up back in Southern California.
I am leaving next weekend to head to California to interview in person for one of two jobs. One is with Girl Scouts- San Diego, and the other is a potential interview for a camp in the LA area.
As I ponder the process that has taken me to this point, I honestly am kind of overwhelmed at how God works. You see I started my journey in California. I spent many years there. It was the first place that I experienced true community outside of my hometown. I was 19 years old when I first set foot in California. A shy, insecure 19 year old. I walked into life at camp, and my world was changed. When I think about that girl compared to who I am now, I am pretty amazed at all the changes and experiences I have had since then.
I left California in 2008, packed up my car... drove to Missouri with my sister, and moved to Bangkok, Thailand. I wasn't ever planning on returning there to live. California had been a place where I learned about love, loss, God, community, sacrifice, and forgiveness. It was a place I planned on visiting often, but not a place I thought about "settling."
So here I am... almost 9 years later pondering what it would mean to move back.
All I can feel is ecstatic. Ecstatic for the fact that I was asked to come interview in person. Ecstatic that I have people I know there that love me, and would do anything to help me out if I needed them to. Ecstatic that there is potential for me to live in a place that I love so much! Ecstatic for the potential of leading people, and using the skills I have developed in a new way!
Moving back to California would be a big change. When I left to go to Thailand in some ways I was running from some things. I was running from a dream that I had that didn't go like I thought. I was running from this idea that I had of community that didn't work out the way I thought it would. California is a place that I call home. It is a place that holds a lot of my friends, and friends that turned into family.
My prayer is that one of these jobs works out. My prayer is that I get to be in a place where I can use my gifts and talents in a year-round full-time camp job. I am excited about the possibilities. I am excited to see what is going to happen.
Sometimes we have to take risks. It is super risky for me to jump on a plane in 7 days and go interview for a job that I might not get. It is super risky for me to think about leaving behind a life that I have made for myself these past 3 years. It is super risky to think about starting over again. This year is about risk. If I don't try, if I don't go for something because I am scared, then I am not really living what I have been called to.
I don't want to just live a mediocre life. I want to live a life that is full of adventure, risk, and using my gifts and talents the best way I can. I was created for more than this.
So I dream of California. I pray, I ponder, and I hope!