I have a lot to get done in the next few weeks. Next week I am leading a class for Kid's Club, on top of working my full time job. That means that I will be gone from 7:20 AM till 9:00 PM everyday. It is going to be a fun week, but I already know that I am going to be exhausted.
The past 2 weeks have had some really big ups and downs. I have been able to process a lot of it though, and realized where my mistakes were, and perhaps understood a little bit more of why things had to happen the way that they did. I still don't like it, and I wish that I would have made better decisions a long the way, but ultimately I know that it happened the way it needed to, so that I could learn a few lessons.
I am doing the #100daysofgodspromises book from Dayspring.
It arrived today, and I am already loving it!
Today's topic was grace.
Why do I need God's grace?
I need God's grace because I am horrible at loving others. I need God's grace because I am constantly judging, being sassy, looking down on, and ruining what God could be doing if I would let Him.
I need God's grace because on my own I mess up a lot.
A couple of weeks ago I had someone betray me probably in one of the worst ways that anyone has ever betrayed me before. I really didn't want to give this person any kind of grace. And if I am honest I still don't actually. This person basically took my heart, and trust and stomped all over them. I know that this person probably doesn't even care that they hurt me. They were just playing their cards, keeping me on the side just in case something else didn't work out. I get why they did it. It doesn't mean that I agree or like it one bit. But I get it.
It's hard for me in instances like that to understand grace, and how to give grace, while still keeping boundaries. But you know what grace doesn't mean that people get to do whatever they want, right?
God's grace isn't even like that. Yes, He gives me grace. My weaknesses are made strong through that grace. But that doesn't mean that His grace is a free ticket to do whatever I want. I think that goes with others too. I can give someone grace without allowing them to damage my heart. I can love someone with God's grace without allowing them back in my life.
We give each other grace, but that doesn't mean that we let people act however they want. Love means boundaries. This is something that I am just learning. It would have been more beneficial if I had learned it a long time ago, but sometimes you have to go through some hard things in order to be ready for what God wants to teach you next.
My next is boundaries and grace. I'm excited to see how He uses this on my journey.