Saturday, December 31, 2016
2017.....A Year of Risks.....
I took a look back over my posts from this past year. 2016, it was supposed to be my year of being Intentional, Grateful, and Authentic. As I reflect on these things, I have to wonder if they were really what drove me. If every interaction I had was really about these three words. I have to admit to myself that it probably wasn't. I don't know that this was my best year of authenticity. I was real, but I also wasn't. I hid behind a lot of insecurities in a lot of different situations throughout this year. I'm not going to put myself down for that, because I don't think we can fix everything in a year. I don't think we were meant to. I think that we are just meant to live better than the year before. Sometimes there are years filled with lots more darkness than there have been in the past. Sometimes we get stuck in that darkness for most of the year, but then we begin again.
So, I'm not going to let go of being authentic. It is still very much a part of the core of who I am. It is still very much a part of the process that I want to work on. Being authentic isn't about always being so open and raw. Being authentic is about caring about others, developing community, and being open enough to risk.
My word for 2017 is risk. This year I want to risk all that I have to live life to the fullest. I don't want to stop having adventures just because I think that everyone expects me to stay in one place. I don't want to stop seeing the world, experiencing life on every continent, being a part of cultures that cause me to examine my life and share the grace that I have been given. Risk isn't about giving up on dreams, or people. Risk is about not being okay with living a mediocre life. Taking chances, applying for that job that you might never have applied for before. Not staying in an environment that is toxic. Risk means moving mountains and going after the things that I'm passionate about. Living my life in the most authentic way that I can, and being willing to let go of those things that only cause hurt and pain.
This year might not be epic, but it sure is going to be a year for a lot of changes. It sure is going to be a year for me to decide what makes me happy, what fills me, and go after it with all my heart.
I have a lot of resolutions, and goals for this year. Drinking more water, reading my Bible more, taking time to hike, writing real letters.
The most important though is that I refuse to be stuck in a life that is convenient, or a life that doesn't challenge me.
Here's to 2017....may the risks be worth it!