Two days in a row! I'm making a record here people! I joined the gym last weekend because it truly is the ONLY way I will be consistent with working out. I have at least 3 runs that I want to participate in this year, so I really do have to get moving with this training. I also find that working out helps me look at the world with a little more grace.
Today my heart is once again in a place of hurting and pain. I am not really sure how I keep getting to this place, but I just want it to be over. Why do we have to hurt each other? The truth is that if I was truly living my authentic self, and you were truly living your authentic self, would we hurt each other?
I have to say no to that. I mean if I really think about it...if I was living my authentic self then I would have no doubts about who I was as a person. I would have no doubts about my abilities to lead, love, laugh and live. Those doubts are what clouds my mind. Those doubts are what allows me to get hurt by other people's choices.
I only have control over my own choices. That's the truth. I can't control my students, I can't control my sisters, my parents, my aunts, my uncles, my cousins, I can't even control my best friends. I can only control myself. I can only be the best version of myself. I can only be authentic.
How can I be authentic in my teaching?
****First of all I think I can do the best that I can for today. I don't have to compete with the best blogger teachers out there. (Because I will fail).
*****I teach my students to love, even in the midst of trials, hurt and frustration.
*****I make the most of the day. Even when I myself am having a bad day. I teach anyways.
How can I be authentic in my relationships?
*****I need to be myself. I need to not be afraid to say the hard things. I need to be willing to be vulnerable with those around me.
***** I need to love without expecting anything in return.
***** I need to give my time, but know my limits.
***** I need to be honest and say when I need someone to be there for me. I need to cry out when I need to cry out, and be silent when I need to check my heart.
How can I be authentic with my family?
*****Love them, even in the midst of misunderstandings.
****Trust them to always be there for me no matter what.
*****Lean on them, even when I would rather be on my own.
*****Show them my vulnerabilities
How can I be authentic with myself?
*****Be honest with myself when I make a mistake, pick myself up, dust off and move on...don't dwell!
*****Reflect often, don't be afraid to just WRITE IT OUT
*****Say 5 positive things about me every morning
****Start my day without FB
****Don't be afraid to LOVE
Being authentic, it's what I'm about right now. I don't really know how, but I know its what I need to do.
Being the authentic me!